Ukrainian men aged 18-60 are not being allowed to leave the country – whether they want to or not – because they are being detained to create a larger defense force in the effort to fight the advancing Russian invasion. While more than one million women, children and others who don’t fall within the combat active requirement have escaped across borders to neighboring countries and beyond, transgender women like Zi Faámelu are finding themselves stuck.

Some of the surrounding countries require passport to leave the country, while others will accept a standard drivers license and a small handful will allow passage with no travel IDs whatsoever.  Faámelu’s passport and IDs, like many other Ukraine trans women, still have a male designation stamp, which means she could be denied passage out of the country. Even if she could find a way out of Ukraine, she might not be allowed to cross into a neighboring country because of the incongruence between her legal sex and lived gender.

“If you have male gender in your passport, they will not let you go abroad. They will not let you through,” she told CBS News.

Before the invasion, Faámelu found some success as a singer, appearing on the Ukrainian singing competition show Star Factory. 

But now, even leaving her apartment feels risky, given the pervasiveness of transphobia in Ukraine. But all of her friends have left, and she is starting to run low on food.

“This is not a very rainbow-friendly place…. Lives for trans people are very bleak here,” especially in the midst of increasing tensions, Faámelu told CBS News. “Many people have guns and weapons… It can be an excuse for violence…This is a very scary situation.”

Her situation is not unique. Getting an updated passport is not an easy process for transgender Ukrainians. Despite efforts to make the process less onerous, Human Rights Watch reports it is likely that transgender people are still required to undergo psychiatric observation as well as gender-affirming surgery to update their documents.

“I don’t want to go through that. This is like, humiliating for the world… I decided to keep my passport, keep male in my passport, and now I cannot leave this country,” Faámelu explained. “[It’s] a war within a war, truly.”

And if Russia wins its war against Ukraine, things may get even worse.

“Ukraine is a European country. We have a 10-year history of Pride marches, and as you know, in Russia, the situation is like opposite,” Kyiv Pride project assistant Edward Reese told CBS News.

In the Russian republic of Chechnya, leaders attempted to “purge” LGBTQ people through murder and torture. And Russia’s post-invasion “kill list” reportedly includes multiple LGBTQ Ukrainians.

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